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I despise days like today. Days when why my life feels utterly pathetic. I feel like I just want to crawl in a hole. I want to transport to some place in my future where I'm not in this stupid place of limbo. What a ridiculous funk I find myself in. I feel like I'm being selfish, I feel Iike I should be happy. I know Christ and His awesome love that sustains me and yet my heart still aches for something more. Is it not enough? What am I missing?

I'm so lonely and restless and scared.